Disillusioned is a good word. "I'm disillusioned" means "I am no longer being fooled by falsehoods, semi-truths, manipulation, group think, and fear-mongering."
Some call it red-pilling after the movie where there is a false reality that some break out of, - a fake style of existing - though seemingly comfortable.
It is much easier to fool people than to tell them they have been fooled.
One must be persistent in testing all claims of truth by doing constant research to determine what is true and what is false.
When everyone says exactly the same thing, even using the same words, there is a lot to be questioned. WELS works that way. All of the sudden everyone is saying the same thing everywhere, like a chorus of bullfrogs.
Tyrants want that kind of control too. They work together, tell the same lies, and treat truth as the worst and most vicious enemy. But they are also so stupid, in some respects, that their promiscuous lying and vile threats come back to bite them.
Various people just lost billions of dollars by trying censorship in a country with the Bill of Rights. The "woke" - what a funny name - have awakened their victims. Twitter and other social media tyrants are being abandoned by vast numbers of people. So is Fox News.
Everything looks good to me.